I promise my blog won't become one of those whiny, self-obsessive, complaining blogs. This post, however, will.
I've had just a God awful past few days. I spent the majority of last night talking about my life to the point of exhaustion with several close friends. I cried, listened to sad music and cried some more. Today has been hell, too. I didn't work, so I spent the day on my couch watching reruns of my favorite TV shows. It's usually a favorite pastime of mine, but today it didn't help. I couldn't stop thinking about my mess of a life. I have several close friends and an amazing brother and parents, whom I am close to as well. But yet...I'm unbelievably lonely. I no longer take comfort in my friends' and family's company anymore and I'm not sure why that is. I don't feel connected to anyone anymore. I just feel alone in all this, but I don't know why. I work early tomorrow (a distraction from my brain, thank God for that) so I laid down about an hour ago and tried to fall asleep. However, due to my laziness all day and my constantly running mind, I can't fall asleep. Which led me to this self-pitying blog. I can't stop feeling upset, and I know it has to get worse before it gets better, but I wish it would just hurry up and get better already. Blah.
- Lauren
I've had just a God awful past few days. I spent the majority of last night talking about my life to the point of exhaustion with several close friends. I cried, listened to sad music and cried some more. Today has been hell, too. I didn't work, so I spent the day on my couch watching reruns of my favorite TV shows. It's usually a favorite pastime of mine, but today it didn't help. I couldn't stop thinking about my mess of a life. I have several close friends and an amazing brother and parents, whom I am close to as well. But yet...I'm unbelievably lonely. I no longer take comfort in my friends' and family's company anymore and I'm not sure why that is. I don't feel connected to anyone anymore. I just feel alone in all this, but I don't know why. I work early tomorrow (a distraction from my brain, thank God for that) so I laid down about an hour ago and tried to fall asleep. However, due to my laziness all day and my constantly running mind, I can't fall asleep. Which led me to this self-pitying blog. I can't stop feeling upset, and I know it has to get worse before it gets better, but I wish it would just hurry up and get better already. Blah.
- Lauren